Its a time for change for me. My mom’s job is taking her away to another city and my dad’s not even in the country, which means i’ll be alone. Which means i’ll go to Church for the first time in four years of my walk with God. but it also means that I’ve to take care of my house, of the bills, the cleaning, the working and of course my studies.
I ‘ll be lying if i say i am not afraid. Sometimes i get so scared that i can’t stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. I know change is coming and its not that i don’t want it to come. I am ecstatic that i’d be going to Church and do the things that people in church do. I have prayed and cried about it for four years. I know the moment i step into a church i am gonna fall flat on my face and cry my eyes out. But going to church is not the only thing i’ll be doing.
I am gonna go to college next year and i have to study accordingly. I have my Boards (finals) coming up in 3 months. And i have no idea how i am gonna manage so many things, all at once, all of a sudden.
Oh i know that God’s with me, He always has been and always will be. I trust Him. I know He’ll tell me how to manage my time and everything else. And it won’t take me long to adjust. But right now all i can see is- nothing. Yes nothing, i can’t see the way ahead of me. I am stepping into new territory, stepping out of my comfort zone. I don’t know how many times i’ll stumble. The only assurance I have is God. And that is enough, i know. But i am human i feel fear and uncertainty, but i know that my God asked me not to fear and i choose not to. Its not easy, trust me, but I’ve had enough experiences with god to know that He does what He says.
And with that in mind i am gonna take the leap trusting that He’s down there with His arms stretched out to catch me.
That is that book i am currently reading and let me tell you it’ll open up your eyes to things you never thought you believed. I never realized i believed SO many lies. Well, Satan is called the deceiver for a reason.
Nancy Leigh DeMoss and Dannah Gresh have not only shown the 25 most commonly believed lies, they have also shown the way out! The truth that sets us free.
I am gonna find a few more verses that shows the truth about the lies that i believed and then am gonna post them here so that i can have a record.
Walking The Narrow Road
